Luke and I, our love story Part 8, remembering

It was Friday, me and Luke went to Pangasinan to check on the project site. We we’re there the whole afternoon visiting the community; doing assessment and some advocacy. When we got back to Manila in the afternoon, I got a call from his mom.

“Hey young lady, it’s been awhile. How are you? How’s your handsome Marcus?” She never fails to asked for Marcus everytime she calls me or we met.

Marcus was just a rowdy little baby pup when I first met her. She stayed in our staff house for 2 weeks helping me sorted out some stuff and setting up our office,  that was 4 years ago. I stayed with her to have someone accompanying her in the staff house coz our office is outside city proper and the neighbors are a bit far. I have to bring along Marcus with me that’s why her and Marcus get too closed.

Every morning you would see her talking to Marcus in her language, it’s really funny coz my dog would sits in front of her listening, as if he understand’s what’s she’s talking about. And then she would command him in her language and Marcus would just follow, ang galing! Spoiler daw kasi ako kaya makulit si Marcus, and he needs to be disciplined and has to learn how to follow my instruction, not me following him. She’s so motherly, and I love her mothering me around. She’s such a great woman and I became so closed to her after 2 week of being together. She became my 'second mother' and then me, her 'adopted daughter'.

“He’s good po. Still the bratty dog.” I answered her from the other line.

“Oh, you’re such a spoiler, young lady. Anyway, I’m here in Manila, I just arrived this morning, Luke told me you were here. Are you staying here in Malate? Care to join me for dinner tonight so we can catch up on what’s going on with you right now, I know we won’t have so much time tomorrow after the board meeting, so let’s make the catching up today.”

Hahaha, ang tagal kong nakasagot. Nalaglag yata ang dila ko at tumilapon ang utak ko. Patay….

“Ahmmm, I’m in Quezon City po e, we just arrived from Pangasinan and I’m rushing the assessment report for this trip, Calvin needed it by tomorrow for the board meeting, and I don’t think I can go to Malate tonight and have dinner with you, maybe tomorrow we can dine together after the meeting?…. Oh shocks, I forgot, I can’t go tomorrow too coz I’m meeting my friend at Robinson’s around 7pm, I’m sorry po.” I was actually blabbering, and in all of the reasons I told her, dalawa lang ang tama, that I’m in Quezon City and we just arrived from Pangasinan, hahaha. Sometimes you need to learn how to create white lies para makalusot, I don’t know if she really believed me that time but I think she did naman.

“Oh, that’s too bad, it’s been a long time since we last saw each, I miss you young lady, but don’t you worry, I understand. We can catch up before the meeting though. I really love to talk to you. Luke’s been telling me your whereabouts, I gathered you are now leading one of the programmes that’s why you’re always on a trip, I’m so proud of you. By the way, is Luke still there?”

“Oh yes he’s here, Oh wait, he’s in the bathroom.” I told her. Luke was taking a shower that time.

“He’s in your room?” She asked. Yay, tamang hinala. Na-imagine ko yung pagtaas ng kilay nya.

“Oh, ahm…, yes, he helped me bring the projector up here, we use it in the assembly this morning, he asked if he could use the bathroom when we got here, now he’s there….” Magdahilan talaga. Tama ba ang dahilan ko?

“Ok, so when are you going back to home?”

I’m already HOME, I wanted to tell her but I can’t…. “On Sunday po coz I’ve been out of the office for quite sometime now. I need to be back for a week, so I can catch up with my backlogs.”

“Oh you’re so busy hah. You need some time off, when you do, come visit me in Davao, you still owe me one vacation right? And Melissa is here too, you two can bond this time, I would love to see you two together here.” Melissa is Luke’s younger sister. Maggie, his mom, wants us to be together for a vacation, she’s been trying to arrange it for 2 years now but Melissa went back to her mom’s country to study filming, and me, I just got so busy, I don’t have the time to have a vacation even for just a week.

Luke’s sister is also an artist, besides filming, she’s also into photography, we were so close and I always tried to see her whenever I’m in Manila or we would hang out together whenever we get the chance, but since she’s always out of the country most of the time, we weren’t been able to really go on vacation together.

“Oh sure, that would be great, but probably I can have it next year, not this year. I hope Mel’s still here by then.” I told her.

“Yes, she’s staying here for awhile, did Luke tell you that we are renovating the main house? Melissa’s friends from school are coming over to help her out with the interior. And Luke’s friend Johan, is also helping him with the design. I wish you can visit when they’re doing it so you can also help them do the design, I love the interior design you did to your house, very homey, like a summer house in town.” She said.

“Yes, I’ll be in Davao on the 2^nd week of December, I can drop by and see how I can help them. I wish you could also visit us there again too, I would love you to see our house for real, not just in photos.” I told her.

“Yes, soon, hopefully 1^st  or 2^nd quarter next year, I will tell Luke to buy me tickets.” She said on the other line.

I saw Luke came out the bathroom, “Ahm, Maggie, Luke’s here. Do you still wanna talk with him?”

“Yes dear, thank you.”

“Ok, see tomorrow, have a great evening.”

“You too young lady, don’t overworked yourself, have time to rest, goodnight!”

I gave my phone to Luke after. “Your Mom.”

He mouthed ‘Oh, really?”

I mouthed “Yes, really.”

“Hey Mom…………………..” (Sorry I can’t put the words, it’s in their language so as usual, ang naintidihan ko lang ‘hey mom’).

They talked for a few minutes and then Luke said goodbye. “She wants me to bring you to Malate, but you told her that you’ll be busy tonight?” He said after.

“Yes, I told her I need to work on the assessment that we did this morning, sorry ha, I can’t see her muna, nahihiya ako.”

“Why? She’s been asking for you?”

“I know, but I can’t see her without giving her a hint that we’re together.”

“What’s the problem with that, she’ll soon find out?”

“Here we go again, Luke please, konting oras na lang pwede?” Nainis ako but I understand him naman, he wanted us out in the open, but I’m not yet ready…..

“Ok, promise, I’ll be with you on this but if push comes to shove, you have to face it, come on, ngiti na! I’m not used to seeing you frowning. Stop thinking the worst of it. It’s about us remember? We’ll deal with this together.” He smiled at me and then hugged me tight.

“Thank you ha, I know I’ve been so unfair to you, just give me some more time, promise, I’ll be the one to tell them.”

“Ok, smile na, tama na yan. Let’s go to the mall, I know you need to freshen up, then you need to rest na, tomorrow is gonna be a big day.”

I smiled at him pero I’m thinking pa rin, sobrang transparent ako eh, people would know how I feel, si Luke lang talaga noon ang dahilan kaya kailangan kong matutunang magtago. Or else I’m gonna be so doomed. Well, that was then, if I had known lang na he was also in-love with me, di sana hindi nako nahihirapan ilabas yung feeling ko ngayon. Lalo na sa ibang tao.

I haven’t got any boyfriend since I started working in our organization. Kaya sanay sila na always single ako, they never see me with a guy beside me except Luke and my boss kaya ngayon, naiibahan ako, hindi ako sanay, I know para akong tanga sa iniisip ko but I can’t help it.

Luke brought me to SM North that night, we stayed there for almost one and a half hours, I did my walking as usual, pag tense ako or I need to think, walking ang therapy ko, kaya lang pag sa mall, matindi, magastos ako. Luke just followed me wherever I go, pasok sa shop, tingin ng clothes, labas pag walang nakita, siguro we went to 10 different shops before my eyes caught the black off shoulder blouse sa isang branded na shop, medyo sexy na proper naman, you know what I mean, hehehe. So yun, I just gave them my size and then bought it without thinking of the price. Luke just watched me, nasasanay na sya sa kagagahan ko.

We went to Pizza Hut for dinner, after our pizza was served, Luke said. “Mahal ka mag-isip, baby, magastos.”

Natawa naman ako, napansin nya pala yun. “Kaya next time na samahan mo ko, wag mo kung padalhin ng pera, or tell me what you need to buy, para ikaw nalang ang isa-shopping ko.” I told him.

“Next time Divisoria or 168 kita dadalhin, at least dun mura.” He said laughing. “I remember the first time you were like this, that was 4 years ago, remember yung first trip natin together, we went to MOA right after we arrived Manila. Wala kang pagod maglakad, even after so much hiking we did in Camsur. And then you saw that dress and bought it, you were just so happy fitting it, that’s the first time I saw you wearing a dress. You were so damn pretty! You were chatting on the car on the way back to my office, pero pagdating natin dun, you just stopped talking and told me you’re not feeling well, now I know why. That’s the time you met Claire…..”

“You really pick the right time to remind me that noh?” Nainis na naman ako pero that was a long time ago. “Yeah, that’s the time na to the highest level yung feelings ko sa’yo kasi ang tagal natin magkasama, grabe, feeling ko nga tayo na eh, kulang na lang yung ‘I love you’s’ tapos, damuho ka, pagbalik natin ng Manila, me girlfriend ka pala. Alam mo yung feeling na you were inside the house tapos something caught your eyes from the outside, you wanted to go out and take a closer look, while walking, the thing you saw appeared again, it’s a beautiful butterfly with a colorful wings, you were so happy to see it for the first time, but you didn’t realized that the glass door was still close and you just walked right through it and then whammm! You almost knocked yourself out because your forehead hit the door glass. Ganon yung feeling ko nun, hindi nga lang yung ulo ko ang sumakit nun, yung puso ko.” I wanted to cry, remembering it. That time kasi I was so emotional, gusto kong magwala, pero wala akong K, kasi wala naman , walang linaw kung ano man ang meron kami. I don’t know how did I handled that situation that time, pero the pain in my heart that I felt, hindi ko makakalimutan yun.

He grabbed my hands and then kissed it. “Sorry for that, ikaw naman kasi, tago ka ng tago, bakit ba natakot ka?”

“Ewan, feeling ko kasi hindi tayo bagay. Ang gaganda kaya ng naging girlfriends mo, puro tisay, half-breeds, ang tatangkad pa, ano naman ako compare sa kanila? Tapos, ikaw rin kaya, malay ko kung ano ang feelings mo that time, puro ka lang titig, kung makipagkwentuhan ka para kang nagpopropose, feel na feel ko minsan, tapos wala, nada!  Hanggang titig ka lang, alam mo ba yang titig mo na yan, nakakabaliw, kaloka ka.  Alam mo yung time na nagmeeting tayo last June, I told you about my friends teasing me coz I’m the only one na single, then sabi ko, I’ll have a baby na lang at maghahanap ako ng donor. Engot ka, nung nagoffer ka kung pwede ka maging donor gusto ko nang sunggaban, kaya lang nauna na naman ang hiya ko. Tapos hindi ko naman maintindihan kung seryoso ka talaga kasi after the 2^nd time na nagkita tayo, pag-alis ko ng office mo, ni hindi ka man lang tumawag. Ni Hi! Ni Ho! Wala!”

“Pinag-isip mo kaya ako nun, for the first time natakot ako. After your Dad’s death, nawala kang bigla, you never bother to call or text me diba? Not the usual you. Hindi tayo madalas magkita but when I see you, I was used to seeing you happy, smiling, bubbly, but when you came to my office, I was surprised to see you again, I wanted to hug you, to hold you tight, but when I looked into your eyes, blanko, and then you blinked, and break the contact, I can tell that there’s something missing, I wanted to see it, always wanted to see it but I wasn’t there, suddenly I miss you, I was missing you when you’re not around, but I was missing you more that time that you’re there. You’re so different, it’s like you’re not the girl I used to know. When I asked for a smile, I thought you’re not going to give to me, but you did, but still, you’re different. Kaya I decided to give you my gift para mabawasan yung worry ko. Pero when you opened the box, parang wala lang. Tiningnan mo lang yung earrings. Tinabi mo lang, parang di ka nasiyahan. I wanted to ask you, but I don’t know what question to ask. And then you started talking about your work, about your friends, masaya ka na, when you started talking about having baby, I was like ‘Teka, is she telling me something I don’t know?’, but when I heard you say you wanted a blue eyes baby, that’s my cue, I wanted to say my piece.”

“Ah, kaya pala sobrang seryoso ka, kwento lang naman yun eh, biruan namin, sineryoso mo naman.” Sabi ko.

“I’m so damn scared that time, wala talaga akong pag-asa sa’yo e, even when you told me na mas gusto mo ng brown eyes, pero hindi ka naman seryoso, tapos I was serious, parang sinakyan mo lang ako.”

“E ako din naman e, diko alam kung nagbibiro ka lang, akala ko nung tumawag ka me sasabihin ka, wala naman pala, dinner lang pala, sawa na’ko sa dinner Luke, tapos ano, magtitigan na naman tayo dun.” Sabi ko.

“Sana kasi pumayag ka na magdinner tayo, di sana nalaman mo na agad, I was ready to tell you what I feel then Tash, pero siguro nga, it’s still not the right time. You can’t imagine how many times ako nag-attempt na tawagan ka, I ask Calvin how are you, he said you’re so busy, he lets you do a lot of work para madivert dun yung utak mo kasi you still think about your Dad, you are still hurting, kaya I decided to step back again. Let you take the time to heal. When you came back again, I wanted to know if you’re really serious about having baby. But still you’re not ready, I told myself, sige, I’ll still give you a little more time. Pero alam mo, nagpacheckup ako nun.”

“Really? Why?”

“You wanted a baby, if you don’t love me, at least I can give you a baby, me connection pa rin tayo diba.”

“Oh Luke, if you only knew that time….”

“Hindi nga eh.”

“Nakakainis, ikaw rin naman e, nung sinabi ko na mas gusto ko ang brown eyes, yun na yun, ikaw ang gusto ko.”

“Pero mas nauna mong sinabi na you wanted a blue eyed baby….”

“Blue kaya ang eyes ng mommy mo, malay mo magmana sa kanya, hahaha. Binawi ko naman ah, di ba sabi ko mas gusto ko ng brown?” I smiled at him. “Basta gusto ko ikaw lang ang daddy, wala nang iba.”

Ngumiti sya. “We will have beautiful babies, baby. If you’ve been very honest with your feelings for me 4 years ago, sana we have 2 to 3 kids na by now, ang sungit-sungit kasi ng ale, ayaw mamansin. Bakit nga ba hindi mo ko kinakausap nung first meeting natin, nag-snob ka talaga?” Tanong nya.

“Nahiya kaya ako, kasi wala ka pa nun, binibiro na nila ‘ko sa’yo, gwapo ka daw, bagay daw tayo, ang mga oldies, tuwang-tuwa na asarin ako, tapos nung sumilip ka, I didn’t expect na you’re really gwapo, kaso ang panget ng hair mo, hahaha, long hair, para kang sanggano, rakista, tapos me over-grown goati ka pa, parang gusto kitang hilain papunta ng banyo, paliliguan kita, tapos, isishave ko yung goati mo, hehehe.”

“Sana hinila mo ko, pagkatapos mo’ko ishave, ako naman ang magpapaligo sa’yo, tapos alam mo na ang gagawin ko after….”

Namula ako, simulan ko kasi eh, yan ang napala ko. “Siraulo ka Luke, me makarinig sa’yo.”

Tawa sya. “Let’s go, mainit na dito.”

“Pasaway ka kasi e.” Nauna akong tumayo at naglakad palabas ng pizza house.

“Dahan-dahan ang lakad, baka sabihin nung nakarinig, excited ka.”

I hissed at him “Gago! Meron ako, diet ka tonight.” Hahaha, kamot sya ng ulo.

My period arrived that morning kaya rin siguro me mood swings ako that day. Luke just cuddles me when we both lay in bed that night, nasasanay na’ko sleeping with him, dati ayokong may katabi matulog, since we we’re babies kasi ng mga kapatid ko, my parents put us in separate beds, kaya hindi ako sanay ng body heat except for my furbaby na si Marcus. Ayokong me katabing matulog, I don’t like sleeping over sa friends house or sa bahay ng relatives namin, kailangan ko makitulog at madalas me katabi ka talagang matulog.

Now, with Luke, nasasanay na talaga ako. I would always snuggle closer to him, I love the feeling of his body against mine.

“Sleep na, you will have a long day tomorrow.” Luke said kissing me on my cheek. His arms around me. Spooning position kami, our favorite sleeping and making love position. Sumiksik ako sa kanya. Me matigas sa likod ko.

“Luke, ayaw matulog ‘nyan’?” I whispered.

“Matutulog din ‘yan’ mamaya, hayaan mo lang ‘sya’.” Sagot nya.

“Gusto mo patulugin ko muna?” Tanong ko ulit.

“Baka lalong magising, hayaan mo lang.” Sagot ulit nya. So ‘yun pakiramdaman kami, hindi ako makatulog now that I know that his having a “hard time” beside me.

After a few minutes, umikot ako, he’s still awake. He smiled at me and he kissed my forehead. “Sleep na.” He said.

“Kanina ka pa sigeng sabi ng sleep na e hindi ako makatulog, kawawa na naman ‘yan’ patutulugin ko muna.” I told him. “Luke, let me, ok lang sa’kin, promise.”

“Are you sure?” Kumislap yung mata nya, para syang batang bibilhan na ng toy na kanina pa nya pinabibili kaya lang dahil makulit sya, pinabi-behave muna ng mommy nya for a few minutes para mabilhan.

Kinapa ko sya sa boxers nya, matigas na talaga si Loko. Napa-‘uhmmm’ sya nung ipasok ko yung kamay ko sa loob ng boxers nya. “Baby, very hard ka na oh.” I heard him laugh. When I looked at him, nandun yung need sa eyes nya.

Umurong ako papunta sa kanya, I kissed him sa mouth, passionately, I inserted my tongue and find his, we we’re french kissing after a while, then my hand started rubbing his cock. I heard him moan. So I stopped kissing him. Umayos ako ng pwesto, readying myself to go down on him. “Tanggalin na natin ‘to baby.” I told him while he helped me peel off his boxers and then inayos nya yung higa nya sa gitna ng bed. “Tell me what you want me to do ha.”

His cock looks delicious laying on his stomach, I don’t know why I feel that way, dati kasi when I watch porn movie, fast forward na pag-bj ang eksena, ayokong tignan. Hindi ko alam kung bakit, pero with him, his cock, I love seeing it, I love licking and tracing it with my tongue, ang sarap hawakan, ang init, ang tigas….

And then ayun na naman ‘sya’, ‘he’ has a mind of ‘his’ own, nagpapakitang gilas when ‘he’ jerked, and ‘he’ would start getting bigger.  Naamaze na naman ako. “Luke, talagang ganyan sya, parang super heavy pag galit, hindi ba mabigat.”

“Hahaha, curious na naman ang ale.” Tuwang-tuwa sya sa kagagahan na tanong ko.

“Hindi nga, kasi parang ang bigat nya in between your legs.” Pangungulit ko ulit.

“Hahaha, ang kulit, I thought you wanna do something with it?”

“Sige na nga, later, sagutin mo lahat ng tanong ko ha.”

“Okidoki baby, I will, promise. Can you hold it now?”

“Yes baby, I’d love to.” Hinawakan ko yung cock nya, biggie talaga si loko. I rubbed it with my two hands, super tigas, ang sarap sa palad, mainit. My fingers traces its veins. “Bakit kaya maungat ito?” Tanong ko ulit.

“Akala ko ba later na?” Tawa na naman sya.

“Bakit, sinabi ko bang sagutin mo?” I trace my fingers again pababa ng balls nya. “Bakit kaya me excess skin ‘tong part na’to, ha Luke?”

“Hahaha, ang kulit-kulit, sige iipunin ko ang sagot, later mo malalaman, but, pwede ba, mamaya na yang tanong mo baby, masakit na ang puson ko.” Sabi nya. “Kanina pa ‘yan sa mall remember?”

“Really? Pano mo nako-control?” Tanong na naman ako while massaging his balls with my left hand and pumping his cock with my right.

“Jeezzz!” Nasabi na lang nya.

Hehehe, nakakatuwa ang hitsura nya, he was on his back, 2 pillows under his head, nakaarch yung dibdib nya, he was really trying his best to control pa. I want to give him the release he needed so I positioned myself again, dumapa ako, then I started licking his balls, then trace my tongue from his balls to his head, then doing it vice versa. Luke moved his head so he can see what I’m doing. I looked at him, he smiled and mouthed “I love you.”

I answered him with a deep throat, gosh, he was so big, I tried to get him inside my mouth as deep as I could, and then release him ng dahan-dahan, then suck its head. “Ahhh…. You’re so good baby!” He said in between moan. I did it again and again while my hands pump the lower part of his cock. I was looking at him the whole time. He tried not to break our eye contact but everytime I go deep, he would shut his eyes and moan, I love the way I made him feel. After a few minutes, Luke put his hands on my head and gently pump his hips. I know he was about to come so I grabbed his balls, massage it again. “Baby, I’m coming, I don’t want to come inside your mouth, not now, it’s too much for you.”

I did what he said, I released his cock and moved myself up. My hands still pumping him. He moved up to, and kissed me on the mouth. The kissed was so perfect, I know he was thanking me with that kiss, he was so gentle, so sweet, one of the best kissed we ever did. I pump him hard and continue kissing him back. He grabbed me and hugged me tight, and then he came.... I felt his warm come spurted on my tummy. He just hugged me after, then after a minute or two, he released me. “Don’t move, I’ll clean you up.”

I just stayed on bed waiting for him. My hands and tummy sticky with his come. He came back with a small towel on his hand. “Thank you so much baby, I love you.” And he started cleaning me with the towel.

“I love you too Luke.” I told him.

"Do you know how many times I've dream of this? You, here beside me?" He asked me after he finished cleaning me. 

"No." I answered.

"I started counting the day I met you, I lost counts along the way.... it was so many times, so many nights.... now that you're here, I won't let you go, never. If I say it so many times, wag kang magsawa ha, coz I will always tell you, I will always make you remember.... if there's really forever, I will love you forever...." He said and kissed me on the mouth.

"Ang corny mo ha, pero hindi ako magsasawa, promise, kahit sumakit pa ang tenga ko..... I will love you forever too Luke.... ikaw lang....cross my heart, hope to die."

Tawanan kami.

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